Two Thousand And Eight

This year is one i will never forget. it wasnt the best but it wasnt the worst. it was filled with moments that changed me, moments that made me cry with laughter and just made me cry. this is a look back of my year that was.

JANUARY
started with maddie in rosebud. it was i think our last sleepover before she left. we spent New Years Day at the beach and took one of my favourite photos. on the 15th we said goodbye to maddie for the next 12 months. and i dont really remember the rest of the holidays.

FEBRUARY
well school was back. and my form was one of the best. school this year was pretty good, i made some new friends and the work wasnt that bad either. Steph also took me to the Crew for the first time. and Nat and i had one of the best sleepovers ever. there was also the swimming carnival - which was heaps of fun :)

MARCH
was a quiet month i think. id cut back on a few classes because of my sickness. i did spend Easter at the beach with the family. which was a big milestone in the countdown to maddie's return.

APRIL
was filled with some awesome trips to the city :). In one day steph and i met Mark Watson, Josh Thomas and Dave from the Umbie Bumbies. Nat and i also saw the Umbie Bumbies as well as the Megahorns and the English Gents. and had one of the best nights ever.

MAY
there were some trips to the footy and city again. Nat and i ventured out on a very cold day to have fun in the city. we went to Retrostar and saw amazing things in KFC and the man holding the vacuum cleaner at North Melbourne.

JUNE
well first there was seeing and meeting Stealing O'neal. who were awesome. then of course it was the birthday party :). it was probablly the best party ever. and i got to talk to maddie on sykpe. and it was a night i will never forget. There was also Maria's party.

JULY
well this was where we hit the halfway point. and that was huge. we also went to the city. again. and we went down the graffiti covered lane ways. On the holidays my aunty took me to a spa place in Dalesford which was fantastic. and nat and i saw the Dark Knight and fell in love wt Heath Ledger - "Is that a bazooka?" XD

AUGUST
not much happened in this month. but nat and i did watch the Blues Brothers and monty python movies. oh and of course Breaking Dawn came out. and im proud to say i took just 7 hours to finish it.

SEPTEMBER
went on a school excursion and took some more city trips. it was also maddies birthday, which was another milestone. and we had fun at the McKenzie's grand final party and enjoyed more holidays.

OCTOBER
well there was Will's confirmation and school was starting to wrap up. last bits of work had to be handed in and exam study was starting.

NOVEMBER
was a busy month. we got to see tripod and met gatesy :) and then there was Cup Day and the cardboard cup. which was a great success. there was exams and work experience as well. there was a heap of birthday parties, including Nat's, Bill's, Hanada's and Amala's.

DECEMBER
started with the end of school and the beginning of 9 weeks of freedom. and the hols have been pretty awesome. we did lots of fun christmas shopping, started doing some fun cooking, met the chasers. There was Will's graduation. There was chritmas and all the family gatherings.

overall theres been a lot this year. ive found new things that i love and im a but sad to see 2008 go, but i can not wait fot 2009

All The Small (And Bigger) Things

i stole this idea of Matt.
TEN THINGS THAT I HATE

10.
Characters like Bella Swan. Don't get me wrong, i love twilight, the stories are fantastic and whilst twilight and breaking dawn are ok, new moon and eclipse made me want to throw the book. all this self-sacrificing bullshit and how she wants both edward and jacob. and then with other female main characters they get all hyped up on being independent etc. get over yourself. theres nothing wrong with females being independent, i think its very important, but theres a big difference between someone running your life and just simply wanting to help.

9.
People who are late. All the time. there is nothing (or almost nothing) more rude then people who are habitually late. everyone has a phone, who knows, people are on it all the time, for godsake call! instead of leaving the person feeling as though they are not good enough for you.

8.
Homophobics. *sighs* aren't we past all this yet? there's nothing wrong with being gay. it's just another form of racism really. i'm sure there's some thing that says, that no matter what sex you are, what race, colour or religion everyone is equal. people who are homophobic obviously have some other problem going on. gay people are just as smart, just as normal as the rest of us. some people use the excuse, "Oh its just not natural. it goes againt nature." well actually, scientists believe that people are born gay. that there's something in our brain that makes us that way. so technically, being gay is just like having a disability. people cant help it, and theres nothing wrong with it. it doesnt make them any less smart or any more good or any more bad. this is like a disability because of people who are homophobic.

7.
schools with out proper heating and cooling. john brumby can go jump. seriously. he thinks we are forgotten or we dont win votes. well with more and more people going to public schools instead dont you think it might be time to fix or rebuild most of the public schools? you know like at strathmore how they stagger classes, because theyre are to many kids. or how we have computers from 8 years ago. but mostly when i did a sac this year and it was 39C inside the classroom. portables are not energy efficient at all. and until they govt do their work (thats if they actually do anything) in a freezing classroom in winter and a sweltering room in summer. well they all get stuffed.

6.
when people drop things. its one thing i really dont like. i hate the noise. it's things like the remote and saucepans. that crash. idk. i dont mind loud music all noisy malls, but at home i like quiet.

5.
freaky dreams. some people find them funny and amusing. i find them disturbing. they just freak me out, in fact i dont really like dreams at that much overall. i prefer and find i sleep better, if i just dont remember my dreams. and it sucks if you have a weird dream and then wake up in the middle of the night and then spend the next couple of hours doing nothing but think how disturbing that was.

4.
how that sometimes it feels better to be ignorant than to be informed. i used to watch the news a lot, now i get the headlines and the weather. im not want to know about how the economy is shit, people are losing their jobs, melbourne's water is up shit creek, its so god damn depressing.

3.
how the blonde person is always the dumb one or the bitch. or both. like for gods sake, get a life.

2.
the end of the rating season. get stuffed. just because im on holidays doesnt mean i stop watching tv. maybe a couple of weeks over xmas, but besides that. and if people are away chances are they do have a tv.

1.
when technology fucks up. esp the computer and the internet. why cant it just go super fast and be super easy all the time? i can not stand it when the internet goes slow.

Climbing The Stairway To Kevin

well it was off to another city trip yesterday wt steph, nat and alex. but this was more than just a day hanging in the city, we were meeting the CHASERS :D! they were doing a book signing for there 2008 annual at dymocks, and somehow steph found out about it, and so thats how it started. nat came over to my house, and by some force we were wearing almost exactly the same thing! we walked (rather quickly) to Melville Rd tram, where we met the other two. we caught the tram to royal park and after a fairly long wait we got the train to flinders st. after a 5 minute walk we got to Dymocks where we all bought the book - the little rudd book (hence the title). we didnt have to wait long for the chasers, Andrew and Craig, plus one of the other writers. we all got our books signed and we got hugs. when we were having our photo taken this guy was talking to Andrew and he, wasnt all there, and he telling andrew about his book that he wants to get published and what happens in thr book, and Andrew just did the act interested and nod thing. we then headed off to get maccas and ate it on the lawn outside the church, where we took much interest in the emos doing a drug deal wt some freak. after a quick trip to retrostar we went home. a very successful day :)

Get Free

well nat if u read this, u will not beat me! i will not only have statues but streets and cities named after me, for my fantastic blogs!
also after stealing this awesome idea off tara, i will include a photos of my fave outfits at the end of my blogs. these ones r all summer ones.
atm im currently in full holiday mode and planning maddie's homecoming. i am the queen of planning. and if mum had let me plan christmas she would not be stressing over how much needs to be done. i dont have much to write about, mostly im just being very lazy and loving it. the freedom from work and worries feels great :)



shirt Valleygirl shorts Valleygirl

Schools Out For Summer

paradise it is. as of today i have 62 days of freedom :). yesterday was the last day of skool. and besides reading the novels for next yr, i have NO HOMEWORK FOR 2 MONTHS! well i didnt fail all of my exams, in fact i didnt fail any. im very much looking forward to next year. so what am i going to do? well i have a list, it includes things like get my learners, try and get a job and other things like watch every episode of Criminal Minds and stay awake for 24 hours. ive also happily undertaken the task of planning Maddie's welcome home party :) so far its been a blast. its getting so close now. i remember when i was excited that there was only 200 days to go. i remember when there was 22 weeks to go, now theres almost just 6 weeks. so bring on the sleep ins, the sleepovers, the parties, and the not-doing-anythings. i seriously cant believe that its the summer holidays.

"schools out for summer,
schools out forever.
schools been blown to pieces

no more pencils,
no more books,
no more teachers dirty looks.

out for summer
out til fall
we might not go back at all

schools out forever
schools out for summer
schools out with fever
schools out completely" - Alice Cooper

Sweet Children

so i though id write about the couple of days i did of work experience at st pauls. it was really good, most of the teachers that taught me were still there and remembered me. they were all really nice, and its such a good school. its small and the teachers are great and they have really good facilities and programs. i spent most of my time with the grade 1s and 2s. zomg theyre so cute! we did things like show and tell, read stories, coloured in and did wordfinds, played maths games and did worksheets. wow i wish i could go back there. when everythings so simple. but thats not to say highschool hasnt been a blast. i swear the innocence and naivety of those kids was so adorable. its hard to remember what you were like. oh well, in a few years no doubt ill be talking about these times as the "good old days".

- maddy

Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground
The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties
Mum and Dad were your heroes and your worst enemies were your siblings
The only drug you knew of was cough medicine
Wearing skirts didn't make you a slut
The only thing that hurt were skinned knees
And the only thing broken was toys
Life was simple and care free but now things are different.

I Wanna Rock And Roll All Night, And Party Every Day

well ive been have a party marathon of late, 4 parties in 3 weekends. i had 2 yesterday. i went to nats first, braving the freezing conditions. i got their at just before 12, which was when the party was due to start. sandy came a few minutes later and that was it for about 30mins. so we ate chips and chicken. then matt arrived, and slowly more people turned up. so by 1pm we were all eating and taking photos. so then we decided to play a game. we were blindfolded one at a time and we had to draw a picture. brodie was the winner, after her excellent drawing of two men, with fishes jumping into their mouths. then we went back to eating and taking more photos. we also played such games as pin the toupe on bert newton and pass the parcel, won by maria and sandy respectivly. nat also made the mistake of having helium balloons and much time was spent making dicks of ourselves, saying funny things. we also went upstairs and admired nats sexy new bass. paige and maria made the mistake of going outside and we proceeded to lock them out, and then pretend we didnt. nat also had much fun opening her sexy presents. the cake wasnt rele a cake either, was a mound of cupcakes instead. the rest of the afternoon was spent playing xbox and fusball, or as paige would say "fuzzball". after going home and eating dinner it was off to bills, in which we arrived fashionably late. i stayed inside wt the guitar heros and the sing stars, because it was absolutly freezing outside. so after partying hard all day, i finally went to sleep at 1am.
twas a good day :)

It's The End Of TV As We Know It, And Quite Frankly I Don't Feel Fine

well its that time of year again. while were all gearing up for the summer holidays and christmas, the annual evilness that is the end of the rating season also comes. when we no longer have homework or study for exams, when we want nothing more than so sit on our butts and be sucked into the mindless, unrealistic stuff that is television, this is when they strike. the australian shows all have their season finals, and the American shows that are still airing in the US, finish up here! WHAT AM I MEANT TO DO FOR NINE WEEKS! i suppose that you'll tell me to go and play outside and be social. HA!. well this evilness can not beat me. i have this thing called a computer that has broadband and i will be watching all the american shows that i want on this little thing called the internet. but really, how can they do this to us? i need these shows. i dont think these tv stations quite understand what it is theyre doing to us. all the shows ending or have ended by next friday are (note i may not watch all of these shows, but) : spicks and specks, the einstein factor, 60 minutes, australian idol, landline, talking heads, home and away, out of the question, good news week, foreign correspondent, packed to the rafters, all saints, rush, cook and the chef, the new inventors, at the movies, criminal minds (still airing in america!), bones, getaway, the strip, law and order criminal intent. what do they expect us to do? and then we all know what happens next dont we? all the shit shows and crappy reruns that weve seen a million times replace the good ones. the only good things that comes with going back to school is that all the good tv shows return. the only thing is you have to plan your homework and and study around them. during the next two months is the time when people are home and have nothing to do! when they want to watch pointless and highly improbable storylines. no wonder kids get into trouble over the summer. theyre being forced outside, into the world, forced to have human contact with each other, and they dont know what to do. violence results as they struggle with the withdrawl of good tv. when there comes the time that i cant watch some prostitute be murdered by a guy thinking he is killing for the greater good, and then have some all powerful team who can magically solve the case in 40 minutes, acting all cool with their guns and making lameass horatio cane comments and not wearing proper clothing at crime scenes, well i dont want to live in that world!

Rockin' The Suburbs

so i had my first day of work experience today at RRR. twas ok. mostly i was just in the music library, filing CD's and listening to music, they must have about 20,000 CDs in there. on the tram i wanted to punch this asshole who would not shut the fuck up. as much as work was ok, really i just want it to be the holidays now! i cant take this anymore. its just so close, i want it to be now. i just dont want to do anything. no homework, study having to go places. i just want to sit on my couch and watch dvds and reading trashy novels. i want maddie to come home. i want it to be christmas. if i could have one wish it would be for it to be december 2nd now!!! i want to curl up in ball and sleep for the next two weeks. the holidays for the past few weeks just seem to be out of reach. 14 DAYS TO FREEDOM!

- maddy

"I got shit running through my brain
So intense that I cant explain
Im pissed off but Im too polite
When people break in the mcdonalds line
I dont know how much I can take
Girl give me something I can break
I can feel that somethings not right
I can feel that someones blasting me
With hate and bass
Youd better look out
because Im gonna say fuck" - Rockin The Suburbs, Ben Folds Five

Attack Of The Exams (part two)

well i finished my exams! i had three yesterday and two today. i think that i failed my methods exam and did shit on my lit essay yesterday. but i thought its your world went ok. anyway today was pretty good. i had the first two periods free so i spent the first one studying science and the second studying history. at recess we all just hung out. then i had a science exam. it wasnt to hot in the room. the exam wasnt to long and i finished early, it wasnt that hard either. multiple choice on the three topics then some short answer questions. at lunch i had to go and sell my books. i didnt take to long, then i went and met up with nat in the library. then i rushed off to my last exam - history. was rele easy. match the words and the meanings. comment on the significance of enlistment and conscription posters and write an essay on the question of your choice. i did how the great depression affected society. and also finished early. im so glad its over. NO MORE SCHOOL!

Attack Of The Exams (part one)

i just did my first day of exams. it went alright, but i am SO tired now. and i have to do two more days. i dont think ill be going to funfield on friday. there was no form assembly so we just went to b11 where we had english - romeo and juliet. it really gay that ur not allowed pencil cases, all ur stuff has to be in a plastic pocket thing. the tables and everything were all set up and our teacher was mr smily man. we went in an got our questions. i picked "despite their flaws it was outside influenes that caused the tragedy of romeo and juliet" it was pretty easy, i wrote about 3 or 4 pages in twp periods. then at recess we didnt do much and we had to be outside our classes early. we had maths next, and it was starting to get hot. it was like 28C today or something. the exam was so long! hardly anyone finished. i did short answers or part b first, that took a period, then i did 1 of 2 questions from part c, worth 10 marks. then i went back and did part a multiple choice, up until linear, which i didnt attempt and then back to part c to do the second question. so besides the linear questions i finished, but god it was so long. then me and nat went to the library at lunch in an attempt to study for the second english exam, the argumentative one. we only got a peroid for that one, and i think i did ok. i wrote over 2 pages. so, so far i think im doing well, its just that im so god damn tired. i cant wait for this to be over. its this close to the holidays!

- maddy
"Imagination is more important than knowledge" - Albert Einstein

The Way We Get By

well i have a few things to talk about. first exams are next week. im not that worried, coz im sick ive just been doing notes, not real study, but i had to force myself to write the notes, on the account of writing notes suck. anyway, i also found out what my subjects are for next yr and ive gotten all the one that i wanted. methods, bio, lit 3&4, eng, history. and im with maddie for ALL of my subjects. im looking so forward to next yr and starting over.
in other news last night at the video store i got the entire third season of NCIS. im slightly addicted. NCIS only comes second to Criminal Minds and Rush. i guess its a little sad when you spend your whole staurday night watching 7 episodes about murders, but hey.
lately ive also gone back and started reading my favourite series, the Stephanie Plum novels. theres 14 main books and 3 "between the numbers". Stephanie is a bounty hunter in New Jersey and is always getting stalked, shot at, cussed at, firebombed at by crazed stalkers and killers. these are probablly the funniest books ive ever read. i can not wait for the new ones to comes out next yr.
at the moment things are pretty good :)

- maddy
Gibb's Rules
#18 - It's better to seek forgiveness than ask permission

And They're Off And Racing

well i know its thursday, but on tuesday we had a Melbourne Cup get together with some friends at my house. people arrived at around 12:30-1:00. we sat around outside and talked for almost 90 minutes eating nibbles. the weather was nice, blue skies hardly any wind. we had a bbq for lunch, complete with sausages, kebabs (lamb and chicken), burgers and fish cakes. we then did a sweep to pick our horses. and went inside to watch the race. it was so close at the end, practically a dead heat. my horse came third, and after putting in my dollar to enter i ended up with $4. after that it was back outside for our own race, The Cardboard Cup. which envolves carrying a small plank of wood with a cup of water balanced on it (at the front there was a cut out of a horses head - all made by dad) and you had to run down the driveway (which it quite long) around the bin and back with out spilling the water. sort of like an egg and spoon race. the winner (bruno) won $20. then we all had desert and after that steph, tim and i spent the rest of the afternoon at the park, hanging out and being cool.
overall an awesome day.

oh and thank god Obama won, i was at home watching it live on tv when it was announced and he made his speech. i hope there will never be anymore Bible bashing presidents who are still living in the 20th century.

- maddy
"its not if you win or lose, but who you place the blame"

Fear Of Shorts (and little kids)

so today was an awesome day. me, steph and alex met up at Pacoe Station because were off to see Tripod!
we left the station on the 3:22 train and got off at Flinders St. we headed down Swanston St to the Arts Centre to buy our tickets even though we had over an hour. we walked past the big tent, cafe and bar set up outside and after going literally through a maze to get to the box office, we bought our tickets for $10. as we had about an hour to wait we went back to outside Flinders where we bought doughnuts and milkshakes. we went to sit and eat at Fed Square where we experienced the free and slightly amusing entertainment of a group of guys that were totally shitfaced :) one of them came and sat next to us. i have once again proven my amazing ability to attract drunk guys. at 4:30 we headed back and headed for the little girls room, where we almost crashed into Demi from So You Think You Can Dance. then we lined up outside the tent. it was here that we noticed all these families. steph had said it was family friendly but we didnt think this friendly. when we got inside we became aware of the horror that we were in.a tent full of toddlers and their parents >.< . luckily Tripod were on first. they sung "The Wheel", "Trees Get Chained To Hippies", "The Day When We Found That Body", "I'm Not Coping" and "Thursday". then their was an intermission. then out came the Casio brothers and Demi aka Demolition B-Girl. oh boy. the Casio Brothers were 2 white wannbe hip hoppers in white trackies prentending to be Swedish. we stayed for 2 songs then got the fuck out of there. they were singing crap about turn offur tv. after steph bought some merch we saw Gatesy. we went over to him and got some photos and had a chat. he was SO nice. we then went out of sight and sound and did the jump and scream.
twas overall a totally AWESOME day.

Much Ado About Nothing

hey, well i know that i havent written anything here for a while. i havent really been doing much. ive been home sick pretty much all week. sickness plus hayfever equals more sickness. ive been attempting to do some study, not really happening. mostly ive become obsessed with Mock the Week, NCIS, Rush and Criminal Minds, especially Mock the Week and Criminal Minds. i could watch them forever.

im very happy though because its Melbourne Cup weekend. on monday me and my friend Steph are off to see Tripod in the city! then a whole bunch of people are coming over for Cup day. typically it will be cold.

i really cant believe that its November! i only have 7 days of actually being at school left! then after work experience 9 WEEKS of holidays :) also this year, since the hot weathers started again, ive noticed that im coping with the hot weather better and being able to sleep at night. i dont notice how hot it is, im hoping thats the case as i cant stand hot weather.

maddy xoxo

"You can plan a pretty picnic,
but you can't predict the weather" - Ms Jackson, The Vines

You Got A Friend In Me

my last post twas a bit depressing, so i decided to steal maddie's idea and talk about thy friends.

MADDIE!
is my most bestest friend ever. we also share the same name. i absolutely love her to pieces. maddie and i met in yr 7 english and became good friends. but i had my own group and she had hers. our groups merged together and we became even closer. in yr 8 we didnt have any classes together, but our forms did do things together. then the group went thru some changes. 2 people moved schools and we had a fight with one. at the end of yr 8 we became rele close and started having our own sleepovers. at start of yr 9 we were put in different forms but i requested to move and by some magical force ms starry let me. we than had every class together and became bestest buds. when i got sick she called me EVERYDAY that i didnt come to skool and she bought me hw that she let me copy. shes the strongest person i know. i miss her so much right now and im counting down the days until she comes home. ive had a few best friends, but if i could only have one friend for the rest of my life, i would pick her.

NAT
was part of maddie's group in yr 7 and we also met in english. however in yr 8 we were in the same class and had most classes together. we became pretty close and like maddie started to do more things together. by the end of yr 8 it basically became me, nat and maddie. nat can literally make me rofl. shes hilarious and we have so many inside jokes and quotes i cant remember them all. we have many things i common such as: a love for lil asian guys, sean connery and keanu reeves, comedians (umbie bumbies, lano and woodly, monty python etc) and we have a rather excellent taste in music, and we are both in love wt ANDY MCCELLAND! i love her very very muchness. oh and we got married in yr 8 :D

STEPH
i have known steph since i was 4. we went to kindergarten and primary skool together. steph has always taught me to be who you are and dont care what others think. i took me a while to pick this up but shes always been there. we drifted a bit for the first couple of years in high skool, and if one good thing has come from maddie being away its that ive become closer to steph. i love our city adventures and i owe her a lot for getting me into the crew, taking me to other comedy shows and being my skins buddy. shes pretty awesome.

so yeah my friends make yours look like shit. i would never, ever give any of them up. i fucking LOVE them.

"because were all going to need somebody
to take our troubles and our worries and our problems
all away." - Hey Now - Augustana

Drowning Lessons

i am currently drowning in homework and study for exams, im in yr 10 and i have to do more exams than the yr 12s! how does that work! and besides maths i have to study the WHOLE YEAR of work! its not like that in vce. poos. also some of it is such crap. like i care about how an aqueous solution is formed. who cares than when atoms from group one bond with atoms from group 7 that they trade electrons and then theyre happy? i dont give a fuck if the ATOMS ARE HAPPY! i have chronic fatigue - for almost 18 months now. i can't keep up with all this work. i have to be at skool all the time now and thats something i just can't do! im becoming an insomniac - you can tell from the dark cirlces under my eyes and when i do sleep ive been grinding my teeth, so much i put holes in my reatainer. there a very few people who understand what its like to have this. even my shrink doesnt get it. yes i see a shrink. his name is lee, and hes pretty cool. i have to see one because wt this illness im at risk of depression, anorexia and OCD. all of which ive suffered a bit from. i suffer from OCD when it comes to cheaking things. i always double check things or triple check. my bestie is overseas and she knows me best and sometimes i feel as though im surrounded by people but im all alone. i worry about my weight a lot too. i weigh less than 50kg, so technically im underweight. and i have this terrible fear of being over 50kgs. and even when i can count my ribs i still worry. this illness sucks. i dont know when it will end, theres nothing that you can do i just have to "deal" with it. there are no tests and no cures and some people, doctors actually think its all in my head. the only thing thats in my head are my migranes.

anyway moving on. i cant believe schools almost over. less than 4 weeks to go. plus 2 weeks work experience. than i have 9 weeks of freedom.

criminal minds and spicks and specks are on tonight!

- maddy

"Just to prove that I adore
Every inch of sanity
All I'm asking for is, all I'm asking for is
We'll laugh as we die
And we'll celebrate the end of things
With cheap champagne" - Drowning Lessons, My Chemical Romance

Greetings Earthlings

hello fellow earthlings, tis yet another day in the life of me :). im supposed to be doing my history homework, or my english or methods or maths or science, but im here. i went to school for the first two periods today, i have chronic fatigue (almost for 18 months) and only had to go for english and history. tis coming up to exam time and teachers are piling on the homework. poos. mostly i want to say a big CONGRATS to cassie, for being asked to put together a portfolio of her writing by a publishing company. mostly recently cassie's book review on the Dressmaker, by Rosalie Ham was published in the Age.
thats all from me,
maddy
"Cats regard people as warm blooded furniture"

Hey Howdy Hey

hello everyone,
this is my second blog. i made a spelling mistake in the first url, and it brought out my OCD and i felt compelled to make a new one, so if you ever come across it u'll understand. im using this to talk about fashion, music, movies, life etc. if no one ever reads it, so be it. i hope to update this as much as possible.
til next time darlings,
maddy
"All people want is someone to listen", Hugh Elliot